have i become less meta?

i used to be smart and depressed. i think now i'm ignorant and blissful. is the trade-off worthwhile? i don't know, that's what this experiment is all about, i guess. i haven't been keeping up with the running thing lately, too much focus on lab and girls and sushi and tv shows and downloading music legally from apple itunes music store. but i'm doing bay to breakers in may, so i better get back into running. especially since it's like 20 degrees warmer in the mornings than when i started back in november. but my motivation then was much more out of a desperate need for mental stability than any real desire to be in shape, so now that i'm doing well i'm not that driven.

a professor who used to be at mit gave lectures in my neuroscience class this week and it reminded me how much i love the abstraction barrier.