argh blechen grad school cough spit

well

you know how i approach everything in life with insane optimism and naivete at first, then get subjected to some bone-crushing fall from grace, develop an unhealthy skepticism of the world and a correspondingly unhealthy weed-smoking habit, and finally settle somewhere in the middle, a cynical stressball who giggles at everything for lack of any better ideas?

yeah.

that just happened in grad school.

i joined a lab and then every single one of my experiments for 3 months did nothing.

then i had to take on oral exam, which i failed the first time around and had to take again this morning.

with that minor disaster in the past, now i have to pick up the pieces of my former self and decide wtf i'm going to do as a project for the next 6 years.

i have to choose something that doesn't not work.

luckily the girl feeds me lots of meat and doesn't give me any backrubs until it's absolutely positively i'm going to die without one and then she gives it to me and everything is all better :-)

GRAD SCHOOL IS HARD! AAAAH!