Monday, January 31, 2005

oh and birdsong is the shit

my boy erich jarvis, the official mascot and cheerleader of the birdsong research community, just got a shout out in the new york times. i listened to his talk at the society for neuroscience meeting in san diego this past october, and he's really helping to merge the disciplines of molecular and systems neurobiology, a marriage that most of the field is reluctant to condone but, in my eyes, will ultimately prove fruitful in understanding how complex representations are learned, stored, and recruited in brain.

Sunday, January 30, 2005

oh and monkeys like porn

monkeys pay to see female monkey ass

Friday, January 28, 2005

more science memes

chimeric human-animals built for the sake of understanding brain function. but will we accidentally (or intentionally, for that matter) produce a conscious human in a mouse body?

and

this blend of art and science uses this technique called plastination to dissolve parts of the body while preserving the forms of others in plastic, leaving only an imprint of the desired tissues, such as the muscle system or the nervous system. apparently, at one of these exhibits in previous years, there was a man of neurons sitting on a horse of muscle and holding in one hand his own skull and the horse's skull in the other.

Thursday, January 27, 2005

from the neuroscience perspective

this man not having to sleep for 20 years is a complete fucking anomaly. but i guess it throws some weight behind siegel's skeptical view of the importance of sleep and dreaming on normal memory consolidation in humans. but there are all kinds of reports that sleep is necessary in other species. someone needs to get this guy into a lab, asap.

wonderful internet-mediated synchronicity

photographer-bloggers photograph-blogging photographer-bloggers meet in cyberspace

Tuesday, January 25, 2005

you have to lose your mind to be "right"

ted turner compares fox news to hitler and a fox news spokesperson says he's lost his mind. which makes me think, you might just have to be ass-crazy these days to have half a chance at knowing what's going on behind the scenes in this country. let's fly this cuckoos nest! crazy bastards unite!

Monday, January 24, 2005

in-n-out burger

so i've been pretty mystified and enticed by the existence of this california-only fast food restaurant.

i'd eaten only one in-n-out burger before, at the fisherman's wharf in san fran.

but tonight i finally got the real experience of getting a double-double meal at a drive-through on the way back from tahoe (skiing here and here was phenomenal). and i totally thought my friends were fucking with me when they told me to order my burger "animal style". but i did and the guy totally knew what i was talking about, even though it wasn't on the menu.

now that's some fucking trippy shit. here's more:

the "official menu"
the secret menu

i love this fucking state.

Thursday, January 20, 2005

ongoing themes

for today:

my girl barbara boxer sticks it to the man, er woman. text or video.

and if it doesn't end up being condi vs. hilary in 2008, it will be obama vs. schwarzennegar. here's this trippy-ass website cataloging dreams people have had about the governator: arnold dreams database.

and as much as the pentagon tried to deny the iran conspiracy, i would suggest that condi's testimony to the committee on foreign relations (where she coins a broader replacement phrase for "axis of evil", "outposts of tyranny"), cheney's recent comments, and bush's inaugural address point in few directions other than the global democracy initiative 2006 (aka drop bombs fucking everywhere and herald the apocalypse) starting with iran.

update 1-23-05:

holy shit! someone totally took boxer appreciation to the next level! boxer for president! condi vs. boxer 2008 baby!

Monday, January 17, 2005

iran update

just making sure i can still say "see? i told you so!" when the time comes.

reuters blurb and the new yorker article it references.

my ex: guest blogging from the proverbial prison cell

meanwhile, my ex is the person that i made myself the most vulnerable to in my life in order to test my crazy hypothesis that the most beauty comes from connections between people, and thus i experienced the deepest festering sore possible as well. her little golden nugget of expression for me today was: "things aren't as deep or as complex as you want them to be." a few weeks ago, and for about five years before that, hearing that would have led me into a painful thought loop along these lines: "fuck! did i just see complexity and profundity because i wanted to see it? does expectation drive perception so strongly that there is no objective reality outside of my own biased emotional view of the world? will i ever be able to trust my emotions again? yadda yadda yadda." but you know what? this time i just look at it and laugh a little. sad that she doesn't feel how real the world is. hope she finds solace in her superficial bubble. hope i am able to construct a superficial bubble that supports me as i plunge along further in my vulnerable journey into a harsh real objective world of bubble poppers in search of another bubble-popper-stopper! jesus, has this blogalation turned me into dr. seuss? !

prometheus: guest blogging from honduras

a buddy too lazy to make a blogger profile tripped me out with this message:

i also just finished reading The Fountainhead by Ayn Rand, which is making its way into my brainwaves and now through my fingers and now into your brain. don't know if you've read it, but the premise is that everything good comes from the ego, that collectivism has been thrown at us as a ruse and we are caught up worrying about doing what my neighbor thinks is right because its what he thinks his neighbor thinks is right, etc...that by being selfish i achieve that which i could not achieve if i let you help me...that our ultimate tool is rational thinking, i.e. all good, new, radical, mode shifting ideas come from the individual. so my reaction is to think of some conversations we had about a collective subconciuoss (i know i spelled that wrong, but i couldn't even spell it right when i lived in a country where english is the primary language)...so thats fine, all ideas come from the individual because i can't share my brain with you just like i can't digest those entamens donuts you just ate for you. but where do original ideas come from? aren't our ideas based on past experiences that we have stored in our memory? that the whole of our existence is needed to form the thoughts that i am having right now...that if one thing about my experience as prometheus had been different i would not be sitting here typing these exact words right now. so i guess what i'm getting at is that even the ideas that originate within the individual thought process come from a collection of past thoughts, so there really is no such thing as an individual.

(the disclaimer is that this is just an idea, maybe some type of theory in the making, but it needs some help. lets dialogue.)

¿how does the brain work again?

Monday, January 10, 2005

moving right along: part II

so a month ago i said check back with me in a month about my mental and physical fitness regime.

i've completely quit smoking cigarettes and pot for all of 2005. and that's not a joke. i'm still running in the park in the mornings. and that's not a joke. and my crisis is, for the most part, over. guess there's no need for those bottles of vodka and prozac after all.

un-fucking-believable what a blog can do for the soul.

i also just started a new lab rotation in grad school. it's a whole world of new beginnings. as dale cooper moved from one red room to the next, here i plunge into yet another dreamworld of my own creation.

oh yeah. and i just started enjoying coffee a whole lot. i'm never going to be one of those too-much-coffee people, but for now, every time i have a cup of coffee in the morning, i have this huge smile on my face. it's so much fun.

incomplete thoughts: how to make violent revolution obsolete

this link, which i found via my blogdex RSS feed, is essentially an anarchist doctrine written in the middle of the 19th century which asks us to choose between 1) believing in the existence of god and therefore living as slaves, or 2) believing in the nonexistence of god and therefore living according to ideals of freedom, liberty, and social justice. i haven't entirely finished reading this thought-provoking and still-relevant piece, but here are some thoughts that it provoked for me:

Start with "thou shall not kill." If all the people controlled by a government strictly follow that law, then the government can maintain any status quo. If revolution is impossible, then the government can only change within the degrees of freedom allowed by that system of government. Therefore, the masses can only legitimately not resort to violence if the government legitimately makes possible the most propogation of ideas upwards from the masses. In other words, revolution is least necessary (and the practicality of following the law "thou shall not kill" is maximal) when the possibility that new ideas that emerge from the people can change the government is most feasible. When it is most possible for a new idea that trumps the old dogma to be held by a person who can become a part of the government himself, or influence the philosophy of an exising member of the authority structure, then it is least necessary for the people to resort to violent revolution in order to change the government.

Then why do the impoverished or oppressed (defined by their perception) in the Islamic world revolt according to this philosophy? Because the ability of the single person with a single new idea to propogate that idea laterally to the masses and upward through the structure of government is not maximal. The government in this case must be defined not only by the local system of government, but more generally and totally by every political, social, and religious entity that bears an influence on the quality of life of the individual in that region. In other words, the United States government must be considered a contributor to the "government" of the Islamic world simply by virtue of the fact that it is perceived to exert an influence on the quality of life of the individual in that region. Therefore, social revolution will only become unnecessary in that region when the ability of the individual Islamist to affect the government, which includes the government of the United States, is maximized. This entirely explains the attractiveness of resorting to terrorism, which is a means of social revolution that has been shown to affect the actions of the United States government. Therefore, the government of the United States must change, in concert with the local governments of the Islamic world, in such a way that it can be influenced directly through some pathway that does not require violent revolution. Once every government allows itself to become vulnerable to the possibility that any citizen that it exerts an influence on will propogate an idea that will in turn change the inner workings of those governments, then social revolution will become entirely obsolete. Until that time, social revolution will only occur in areas where that balance has not been met, and will in fact serve as an indicator of where in the world that balance has not been met. This is, of course, useful, then, to those who wish to attain this global balance of power, for it serves to point our efforts in the appropriate directions. Where there is social revolution, these questions must be asked:

1) Which world governments, local, foreign, and global, are perceived by the inhabitants of that region to exert the most influence on the quality of life there?
2) What can be done to build more effective pathways for ideas that emerge from the inhabitants of that area to impact those sources of perceived influence?

Wednesday, January 05, 2005

coming soon: revelation 2005

so on the front of my own personal existential crisis, i just want to provide this brief update, with the promise of much more to come. for years i have committed my thoughts to writing very infrequently. i started this web journal in an attempt to use writing to help me progress from the depths of insecurity, fear, and cynicism towards an attitude of confidence, compassion, maturity, and optimism. simply expressing ideas and cataloging my own personal memespace and sharing it with a friend and random passerby here and there, as well as the simple passing of time, has already done wonders for me. but last night, watching the final two episodes of "twin peaks" sent me into an acid flashback of sorts that culminated in a complete shattering and reevaluation of my entire life over the past five and a half years. the only way i could think to procede was to start writing. i wrote for 90 minutes, 2600 words, 4 pages single-spaced 12-point font. some really important personal connections were revealed to me through my writing, and i intend to reread it in a couple of days, edit it a bit, change some names, and possibly post an incarnation of it and\or share it with my therapist. suffice it to say that right now i am the happiest and most confident i have been in years. the first revelation was a slow one that developed over the past three weeks, the second being an instantaneous one occurring fifteen minutes after completion of my viewing of "twin peaks." i can't imagine that this series would have the same effect on anyone else, but depending on where you are in your life and where you are headed, you may want to go ahead and give it a shot. it might just help you come that much closer to reaching your potential as a human being. !

can life get more absurd

than richard gere representing the world to the palestinian people? i'm telling you, the governator is going to be president one day. and i'll even wager he'll be the best president we've ever had. hahaha.

Tuesday, January 04, 2005

see? scientists are believers, too

which basically means if all you are is a believer without being a scientist
(or visa versa), you're shorthanded.

the new york times does a good job of these things sometimes.

God (or Not), Physics and, of Course, Love: Scientists Take a Leap

update: that article was actually a truncation of a much longer set of responses to the prompt.

Sunday, January 02, 2005

intelligent design...of ignorance

whatever created it, it's fucking absurd.

call me a liberal elitist mother fucker, but shit. dinosaurs did not chase adam and eve from the garden of eden, and if you believe it, you're causing the downfall of our society. haha.

In the beginning . . . Adam walked with dinosaurs